Profilectlx.Carlene Tan Li Xuan 11th July 1988. Currently 23+. Studied in St. Anthony's Canossian Primary and Secondary School, SRJC (first 3 months), TPJC, NUS FASS (econs). loves family, friends, chocs, western desserts, yellow, etc etc.
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004In no particular order:cindy: my swornie sis!!! Really gotta thank God for having me known you... "Thank you God!" hehe well i suppose i can openly say you know me best... ya? You're kinda the person who made me have self confidence, something i seriously was in need of... and you were someone i didn't have to be afraid of when telling my deepest secrets. I'm glad to be the one to know you well... an honour you know... keke... like everyone says, you're not someone easy to understand... so i'll be praying that you'll always be there when i need you and vice versa... keke... oh ya, don't lose youself, finding you real self is never easy but don't give up cos the road is long and there's always friends to guide you along, keep your faith ya? Things never do turn out the way you want it to, but remember the pen knife will only scar you for life and leave your problems unsettled, so think rationally as a leader would, and never be shy to turn to us(your friends) for help because we never do find it a chore... k? mei yi: hey girl! here's your msg! keke... like you said its really amazing how SJAB pulled us closer together, and its wierd cos both our way of thinking is so very different yet we get along pretty well don't you think? there's so many million things in this world we can quarrel about but i still feel really honoured to know you... wanna know why? cos u helped me become more mature and helped me to see things in a different light, you make me constantly remember that studies is really important... thanks! well i can say that you are really sensitive and perhaps one of the most self-confident, self assured, person i've ever seen, and this trait is worthy to be admired of, trust me... you know, but you know sometimes you can get out of hand, hehe, well don't let mickey mouse affect you in any way ya? always remember you've got a whole lot of friends supporting you when you fall! hehe... cheryl: hey girl... man, writing a msg to you is hard... hehe well first i gotta thank you for always being there for me when i needed help in SJAB stuff... you never failed to help me make the most suitable decision and always do things behind the scenes... for all your hard work and effort, i think you deserve much credit, sometimes though you oughta try not to be so stubborn, learn to accept the commments of others and try changing for the better k? you're a really unique person, a friend real worth while to know, a friend who always silently supports and never leaves you in the dark, someone i'll never regret knowing... minfeng: hi woman! gosh i think its gotta be nearly 10 years that i've known you ya? And in this 10 years my thinking about you has constantly been changing, can't say i really like you, neither can i say i really don't, but knowing you definitely have made me more mature in my thinking and open my mind bout things in this world which i would not have known without you... and from this year's camp, i finally realise how caring you actually are, but no one ever actually realises it, which is quite sad, so i really think you gotta open up a little more, try showing what you really feel and don't be afraid of what other's think... that's where i think i'll be of help ;)... so stay cool ya... si hui: Well girl, gotta be frank with you, i honestly didn't like you in the past few years coz i always found you lying, but you know what, after this short time knowing you, i realise you're more than what you are and you really are a nice, helpful girl, and someone who needs support and encouragement and that's what all your friends are here for... don't be afraid to face things straight, and have more self confidence... to you, your simple words of encouragement mean nothing, but to those people, it can be treasures, so do reach out a little more k? xue ling: gosh, i don't think you'll actually ever read this but ya, i really need to say 1 thing before i continue, YOU'RE AN ANGEL FROM HEAVEN!!! my gosh, you're like the 1 only person i've known without any temper, without any bad character traits except being blur and the one most friend whose super trustworthy... you're really a God send you know, i really don't know how to thank you enough coz you're always there when i needed you, you never fail to cheer people up, my gosh, please protect yourself really well, you're already an extinct species... hehe desiree: hey girl! didn't know you for very long but i'm sure glad to have known someone like you, you're really kind you know, and you always think about others first, always trying to think how its more convenient for others, which is why i suppose you've such a good circle of friends and i'm proud to be sitting beside you.... thanks for teaching me when i didn't know my work and not getting annoyed at my noise... hehe bernadette: not sure if you'll read this but ya, it was really nice to be sitting beside you this beginning of the year, you're one extrovert, someone whose super organised, with great leadership skills, and a fabulous percussionist too, you're someone really easy to get along with which makes you so special... thanks for taking care of me when i sat beside you... keep in touch! debbie: hi girl! you're one really down-to-earth, hard working, logical and a really perceptive person, someone whom you will feel secure with because you'll so self-assured that you give people a sense of security which is why people like to be with you. You see throught the covers of people so well sometimes it gets creepy but you're one person really worthwhile to know and worthwhile to be with... stay like this always! sher chua: hey girl... don't think you'll ever read this but here's something for you... you're a great leader i must say, someone worth respecting, you never fail to know when to do the right things and always have a way of handling problems which i admire... good for you! hehe... but really you need to show you real you, despite of what it may be, and don't be afraid of telling you problems to others, don't always bottle it all up inside okay? amanda loy: yo adopted grand-daughter.... here's your little msg, can't say i know you very well but well enough to know you can be quite insecure at times ya? don't worry girl, i think you should be more self-confident, as in when it comes to doing things, don't be afraid of what the consequences might hold, but of course that's if you make the rational decisions... also don't always get too sensitive, learn to be more thick skin... like me! hehe, learn to accept the comments of others so as to improve yourself, but remember not to let anyone or anything change that special you.. okay? charlotte: hey polar bear! lookie, here's a msg for you! hehe... well i've really much to thank for in knowing you, thanks for accompanying me when i'm lonely or upset, thanks for always cheering me up... =)... though i've only adopted you for a month plus, i'm really honoured to be your owner, you're someone with this gentle side which you don't want others to see, and you're really stubborn, don't want to listen to people, right? anyway, you work hard okay, don't be so lazy, and take good care of yourself, don't always get yourself injured... hope i'l own you for a really really long long time... hehe patrina: now here's one for you, don't think you'll read it but heck... well i don't really have much to thank for in knowing you... hehe... but well you're a really helpful person, really nice too, but i really think sometimes you should think more for others, put yourself in the other party's shoes before saying anything, also don't hop around too much when it comes to friends because otherwise, at the end, you'll find you'll not have anyone to turn you when you're in serious trouble... and don't flirt so much ya... you'll just get yourself into more trouble, unless you like it of course... well study hard to k... take good care of youself! i suppose that's the end of specific people, well of course not including my sis and bro and mum and dad... hehe okay so i'm finally gonna do my blog now... haven't been here for the past 4 days.... missed reading my entries? bet you all did... keke so yesterday was dreadful, first day of school.. duh right... so no one really enjoyed their holidays cos most of it was spent in school, so what the teachers' really brought across was "there's 9 weeks more before prelims" cos every teacher comes in and says the same thing so now its stuck in my head, and i can't help but think of how i'm gonna pull through when i'm still slacking... help! Back to today. This morning we had spot check, for hair mainly, paired up with desiree, checked 4/1 and 5/1, not many problems really. Got a shock though when i arrived at RTC with the girls... coz there were just so many of them! And i never did expect so many girls with hair problems, and the shoes were just pouring all over. Well i suppose miss lee must be having a fun time there... Well for those who think they don't deserve to be there but got caught... too bad then, just be more careful the next time ya... Hm... all these didn't really affect me... what affected me was how ironic some people could be.... how fake they can appear. One moment they seem really apologetic for having to catch someone, the next moment they're like "actually its her fault for having short hair what." jeez... do everyone wear masks? Well, maybe i do myself, i don't know, sometimes its just so difficult to really be yourself in front of people, especially with a society that's so superficial. I see myself telling my juniors, don't wear a mask, don't ever change yourself to be someone else because God made you this way for a reason and we should just stay that way... but sometimes its really difficult coz in a flash i see myself wearing masks... or do i? Argh!!! anyway just hope that people will stop wearing masks, and i hope me too... it can get really tiring you know... this is a really nice song from christtina..."reflection" once again the lyrics are memorized and typed out so please forgive the errors... "Look at me, you may think you see who i truely am but you'll never know me Everyday, It's as if i play a part Now i see If i wear a mask i can fool the world but i cannot fool my heart Who is that girl i see Staring staright Right at me When will my reflection show Who i am inside...." Friday, June 25, 2004okay back to now...Just came back from the preview, not too bad i must say... just that the crowd wasn't a lot and the performers really looked shacked... poor them, we were suppose to practise for tomorrow's exam but what the heck, i suppose we were just into the performance or something... so anyway, nothing really much today except spending my time in school again... Oh ya something very funny happened just now, when we(me, mei yi, cheryl, cindy, felicia tan and amanda pang) were left the classroom, don't know for what reason we got stuck at the study area, saw those ursherers moving chairs, then my dear koala bear had to go poke me so i had to get protection from amanda pang and guess what they did.... mei yi and amanda decided to grab her ass! yikes! and they did! jeez.... haha anyway that's all about today... yuppie! back at home at last... Actually break camp at around 10.30 yesterday then rushed home, changed(note i didn't bathe, stinky, i know) and rushed out of the house for duty, met cindy in school, got the first aid kits, filled our bottles, actually i bought mine, met cheryl and off we went to grab a cabbie! hehe... so picked mei yi up and tanah merah mrt taxi stand and rushed to the headquaters, was half an hour late but thank god we met this really friendly professer and the uncle that sent us for pucblic duty the last time, they agreed to send us for the duty, and what's more, even allowed us to eat first! so kind of them.... so we headed over to golden mile and shared pineapple rice... it was lovely, i had ice tea and it was super sweet... so anyway when we got there, we sort of got stunned, coz it looked like ndp(note: we were at the stadium) so anyway, met this super ungentlemanly thing... guy i mean... and ya felt like whacking him with the bottles i was holding... so anyway the military bands were SUPERB, MARVELLOUS! yup i mean real real good quality... well so that was yesterday... Sunday, June 20, 2004its already a sunday!!!!! Tomorrow's my camp!!! *scared* *grinds teeth* well... just hope everything turns out okay and there actually WILL be more prople coming...so woke up early this morning, at about 8.30a.m, ate some digestive biscuits and drank choc milk, got a call from dad(who had just picked up my bro from his piano lesson) to get ready coz the whole family was going to see the doctor! ain't it exciting... kidding... when we reached there, there were so many prople in the clinic and it was half an hour before my badminton lesson started, so we were all praying hard it would reach our turn soon, and lucky enough, we did. We knew the doctor pretty well since we vsited him at least once a month, and every single person ecept for my dad consulted him, but the only people who actually need any medication what so ever was my bro and sis, everything i got was mild, which is good! yuppie! After that, we rushed for our lesson and in the car, i received an sms from mei yi saying she would be late coz she couldn't wake up, well not surprising really, what really surprised us was the increase in number of students, now there are 12 people in our class! And we only had 2 courts to medle with, so not very fun at all... me and mei yi played with the young kids as usual, it was 3 against 2... well we lost the first rounhd but after that it was a tense match and the score turned out to be 17/16... we won!!!!!!!!! hooray!!!!! the kids weren't very happy.... duh.... but well... there'll always be another time... so now i'm online, gotta pass the braodband to my sis soon... she wants to play gunbound... oh man i'm gonna miss this com... oh ya! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!! to all daddys': "You peeps are always the one's working behind the scenes, and the mummys' always seem to recieve more credit ya? But you know what, your hard work and effort has never been forgotten and you peeps definitely do work as hard as mummys'(no offence to mummys') and we know and sincerly appreciate that, so hope you would have a really meaningful fathers' day..." today erm... gets ? number of twinkles... ;) Saturday, June 19, 2004used up 3... as in THREE packets of tissue this morning just for my running nose...(and 3=THREE is A LOT for a healthy person like me ya know... keke) and ya, was blowing my nose throughout training today... was tearing on my right eye as usual and mdm su thought i was crying! hehe, well i wasn't, it just tears for no rhyme or reason...so me and cheryl went to the market to order food for monday's camp and bought food for the rest... i ate 3 red bean cake and drank soya bean! hehe, was sooo tempted by the curry puffs but figured it just wouldn't be right if i wanted to get well so ya... went home after training, bathed, packed a little eency weeny bit for camp and off i went for drama which was 2 hours... in the car on our way home, my mum told me i could have gotten sore eye, which explains my uncontrollable tearing... and that might be the most probable explanation coz my cousins have got it and its been passing around and now its gotten unto me... i really hope it gets away before camp or at least gets better, my throat and nose too... so went to my paternal grand's for dinner after that went to my dad's aunt's house for tuition which finished off at about 10, of which when i came home, i found a flastered cindy calling me and i was quite stunned at first coz she usually doesn't call me unless something really important crops up and true enough it was pretty important.. at least in her context... so read her blog and found out she's thinking of ways to murder herself or what we so termed as "suicide" which i am not surprised of coz she always does that when she's upset... and she thinks of ways to murder those who made her pissed off... so ya... well just cheer up ya swornie sis? okay.... my polar bear's finally back!!!!!!!!!! kinda missed her but well... she was really sweet to sms me announcing her arrival... keke... so anyway suddenly thought of this song, by S Club 7... entitled "hve you ever" "sometimes its wrong to walk away thought you think its over knowing there's so much more to say suddenly the moment's gone and all your dreams are upside down and you just want to change the way the world does round tell me have you ever loved and lost somebody wish there was a chance to say i'm sorry can't you see that's the way i feel about you and me baby have you ever felt your heart was breaking looking down the road you should be taking i should know... coz i loved and lost the day i let you go..." erm... these are all from my memory so probably half the words are wrong, but heck... well got a msg for the sad pple out there: "in this world, nothing is fair, not everything will turn out the way you want it to, neither will every problem have a happy ending, but we'll just have to take the obstacles as they come and face them with courage, with friends who would support you to the very end, with families, who never fail to give you the love and comfort you require, so take life as it comes and never NEVER give up, because i think that would be a waste... waste of the time and effort our close ones have put into us... so please don't ever think of giving up because like the saying goes, there'll always be sunshine after the rain... or somthing along that line..." jeez sounded so crappy... but heck.. take care you peeps... love ya always! Friday, June 18, 2004i'm back from tuition! hehe....spent the whole day at school today... had tutorials early in the morning at 8... ate breakfast with my siblings at macs, ate happy meal coz my siblings wanted the pokemon toy, then rushed... luckily wasn't late for lessons...started with a.math... and i realised i forgot all my integration! damn!... now my irritating's sis is disturbing me trying to get me off the net.... gosh trying to be really nice here.... yup then continued with chem and damn she gave the test... half the questions there seemed like spanish to me... and i didn't finish a major question.... i'm sooo gonna fail.... so came home... like wed, bathed and went for dinner with my siblings again... and guess what i ate... 2 harum manis from bangawan solo!... well actually it was 1 and a half... but had another donut later on when i had break for tuition, ate the marble patterened one... so now i'm home and really tired... got cca tomorrow... got loads of things on my mind now... eyes are heavy... gotta get my beauty sleep... today get 2 out of 5 twinkles too! Thursday, June 17, 2004today was pretty alright, started with having to go to school early in the morning, got phy prac and e.math tutorials... kinda enjoyed it though... *surprised*. hehe...oh we have new whiteboards! well, it isn't really new, its just a piece of thing stuck over the black board and its really difficult to erase off once there's something written on it. so got markers from the general office and my my, they were soooo generous, they gave me 6 markers! cool ya... there was green, red, black and blue! ;) went home with nadia after that since everyone else was having cca, had a reminder to write our own testi, jeez i thought that was pretty lame, can you imangine writing good qualities about yourself... gosh... but anyway just have to do it ya... i'm just planning to pick out from my testimonials in friendster.... man... i have no idea what's up with the mosquitoes these says, they seem to be hyper active, sucking people's blood non-stop, theu sucked like most of my blood already... jeez... and the weather's swealtering(new word! keke, hope i spelt it correctly)... can't stop perspiring... came home, went down, had lunch, saw jocelyn, the ex sacian with her friends from TPJC, didn't bother to say hi... she looked too engross in her conversation anyway... took a bath... had no badminton lesson today coz the 2 kids were on holiday... going for the sunday class... my mum's gonna make me sign up for the physics tuition class at orchard... just hate that place, but well, for my studies, its worth the go... went for dinner just now, ate like super full, my bro vomitted, poor boy, so i just got back not long ago, and ya, just entered this entry... so overall... i'll give today a rating of 2 out of 5 twinkles! hehe Wednesday, June 16, 2004okay...first let me start by thanking two of my most dearest friends for helping me create this blog... they are none other then.... *PROGRAMMED MARMALADE = CINDY!* and *TOMATO QUEEN = AMANDA.L!* thanks you sooooooo much darlings, will never forget this favour... *grinz* okay so now to what happened today... first thing in the morning.... went to eat breakfast with my mum and siblings, then off to school i went! so ya, went there to find 5 sec 2s and 1 sec 3 and the only senior... me! started our "study", didn't really study much since half the time was spent talking... this first 2 hours dedicated to study doesn't seem to be working. What should i do? hm... went for lunch at the renovated coffee shop along the road, ate roti prata... the orders were quite unorganised but anyway the foods whats important. So it was GOOD. hehe reached home at bout 5.25p.m, got questioned by mummy but what crap so took a quick bath, ate dinner and off to tuition i went... oh something embarressing happened today, in school, i saw yi hui and cheryl, greeted each other and they asked bout my camp bathing time, so i asked if it was possible for them to make their bathing time at 7p.m, and someone asked how many pple we had and i off handedly(if there's such a word) said 56!, but when i got home... i realised i only had 35 juniors!!!!!!!!! not inclusive of seniors, ex-seniors and officers that is. so anyway luckily got patrina to help clear the little misunderstanding and i told her we would accomodate them since we're the smaller group and she was really nice, so must thank her too.... erm.. i guess that's all for today... oh yae, forgot to add my polar bear went on cruise this morning... how fortunate of her, well hope she enjoys her time and have a safe trip and oh, i've gotta thank her too... for always being my wonderful polar bear cum entertainer and always there to accompany me when i'm bored... but ya, gotta entertain myself for the next 4 days since she's not around... gonna miss her... so anyway, to the peeps i mentioned and those in my heart... THANKS for everything everyone of you have done! love ya! *muacks! Testing, testing.. Haha! Cartan, you owe me and TQ a drink for helping you do this wonderful blog! Haha...for all your infos, pls update yourself, yupyup...think this is about all..Any questions feel free to ask me yarh? ~Programmed Marmalade~ [edit] nah...it's DONE.thanks to me...ME!i did your tagboard...if you dun like the colour combination..change it YOURSELF.and yes..you owe not only cin a drink..you owe me one too!delay and it'll be 2!!! *evil grin*die a horrible tomato death!!!tc. `tomatoQueen. |